i visited my greatgrandmum today, it feels wierd...

this is completely nuts. i have to say. and, for the first time ever, i'm thoroughly doubting myself. i keep double taking, questioning my acts. it's wierd you know. in a million years, i would never have thought i would be here. i would have never saw myself like this. somehow, i don't even think i like myself that much now either.

anyways, my mother made me pass up such a huge opportunity.
it's like what they say about years later you would regret not going for something.. well, i have a feeling this is gonna be one of them.
but, whatevs, it's too late to change now.

anyways. gonna turn in. church tomorrow. the first time in months. wierd or what.

p.s. sorry for the excessive use of wierd today, i have my reasons. and the lack of new vocabulary too.